Back on Track

Finally! Lost 2 lbs. last week!! Still a bit above my lowest......about 1.5 lbs, but I feel like I'm in control again. That is a good feeling!


Friday I had my 4th fill for a total of 6 cc. I didn't realize the last time I had a fill was a few weeks before Thanksgiving, so that may help explain my increased food intake. When I ate yesterday I definitely felt the restriction more than I have in awhile, so that makes me feel more secure. I asked about the "first-bite syndrome" and the PA says quite a bit of people have it but they have no explanation for it. I'm going to try eating a few crackers or something before my meal....we'll see how that works. 


The hubby and I have booked our vacation to Vegas for July! I'm so excited and it's going to be a GREAT reward after graduation from nursing school! 8 nights, 9 days of pure relaxation and freedom from reality! That reminds me, have any of you flown since you were banded? Do I need to get something from my doctor or from Allergan saying I have this device in my body? Also, I'm wondering if there's something I can get for discounted buffet prices in Vegas, seeing as I don't eat that much. Any ideas about either subjects would be helpful!!


Now that I'm back on track I can't wait to weigh in on Wednesday! 


I hope all of you are getting back on track since the very challenging holidays!! My next challenge = start moving!! I hate exercise, but I have to start. 


Have a great week everyone!!

Out of Control

I need help getting back on track. I've been eating like crazy the past 3-4 weeks. Not counting calories, not exercising, not getting my protein in, not getting my vitamins in, not even feeling good about myself, and I don't know how to get back on track. I feel like a pathetic loser. People keep asking me how much I've lost and I've been saying 30 lbs. for what feels like forever! I don't want to fail! 
I need help and I don't know where or who to turn to. I don't even know if I need a fill or not. Like I mentioned in my last blog, I get stuck with my first few bites, and then I can eat pretty normal! I don't feel restricted at all after those first few bites. Every night I say I'm going to call and make an appointment for a fill and in the morning I'm super restricted so I back out of it. 
Please tell me I'm normal to be going through a regression............that I'm not the only one that has felt like a failure..........I need all the words and advice I can get at this point!

Need to Get Back on Track

I know, I know......long time, no blog; BUT I'm done with the semester now until Jan. 19th.....then my final semester before I become a registered nurse!! How exciting!!

OK, so the past 2-3 weeks I have had some serious eating issues. I feel like I have a goofy situation, but here goes.......

1) I'm really restricted in the morning......which the dietician said is perfectly normal, so I'm not worried about that part.

2) Whenever I eat, the first 5 bites or so always seem to get stuck. So I sit there for about 5 minutes or so waiting for them to either go down or come back up. The weird part, is after it comes up (cuz that's usually what happens) I feel much better and then I can eat normally. And when I say normally, I mean, I can eat quite a bit. Not what I used to eat pre-band, but definitely more than I have been able to eat 6 weeks ago. For sure more than a cup and a half. So, do I need a fill? I would say I do, but the part that makes me doubt it, is the fact that the few first bites get stuck EVERY time! Any suggestions?

That's the whole "weird" situation. The other part is all my fault. I've been snacking, I haven't been getting in my protein, and I haven't been taking my daily vitamin. I feel like I'm slowly going back to my old habits and I'm scared to death. How do I get back on track???

Week 11 & 12 Weigh-ins

Taking a break from studying for a bit, so I thought I'd jump on and update my progress and take a look at my friends blogs.

Week 11 = Gain (Boo) of 1.4 lbs. I was not a happy     camper.....BUT

Week 12 = Loss (Yay!) of 5 lbs! 

I am down 28 lbs. total and I am happy! Right now I'm averaging 2.3 lbs/week which is more than I've ever averaged in my life. I'm still not putting 100% into it, so to be losing at this point is great. School is HARD and most of my time is spent studying, reading, listening to lectures, and working. I feel like I don't have an extra minute to spare doing anything, much less exercising. I know I need to at least take a cruise around the block or something though. I need to make it a goal.........even if it's a few days a week. I need to start somewhere. 

My mom did some measurements on me and I have lost 6 inches in my waist!! Unbelievable!! I fit into a pair of jeans that I haven't worn in a LOOOOONG time, and now they're the only ones that don't look ridiculously baggy on me. I guess I'm still in shock that this little tool they call a Lap-Band is working for me! I can't believe I almost chickened out on the day of surgery! That would have just been plain silly!! I definitely have something to be thankful for this holiday season.....regaining my health. It's priceless. 

Weigh in - Week 10 (Wednesday)

Down 3.4 lbs for a total of 24.4 since surgery day! It's almost unbelievable because, like I said last week, I don't feel I'm giving it 100%. I've cut down on the crackers this past week, but I'm still having those damn Frapuccinos. They are the DEVIL!! 

I've been getting stuck more than usual too. I need to sit and really evaluate why I'm getting stuck.......am I eating too fast, not chewing enough, taking too big of bites, is the food too dry? I haven't really sat down while eating and THINK about what I'm doing lately. I need to take a deep breathe and slow down. I'm just all frazzled with school and everything to take time to focus on ME. 


7 more months til graduation.......

Weigh in - Week 9

Posting a few days late, but better late than never! I am down 2 lbs. this week and I'm happy with that! I still don't feel like I'm putting in 100%. School has been HARD this semester and I spend all my "free" time studying. I'm still following all the basic band rules........get in my protein every day, don't drink during meals, taking my vitamin, etc., but I still don't feel like I'm giving it my ALL. I'm noticing that I am "hungry" in the evenings after dinner. I put quotations around hungry because I really don't think it's hunger. I think it's my old self emerging again and wanting to snack. With that being said, I have been eating saltine crackers every night while I'm studying. And I don't eat just a serving size. I can put down a whole sleeve of crackers (giving one here & there to the dog!).

 How can I get out of this habit that I'm in? I've lost 21 pounds in 9 weeks --> More than I've ever lost in that amount of time........I've come too far to let myself fail. Any suggestions on what I can do to get past this? 

So, I don't know if this is weird or not, but the other day I noticed that my boobs are getting smaller. I was putting on my bra and I was like," wow, my boobs are smaller." How does one just NOTICE that one day??? LOL! And why in the world does it have to come off my BOOBS first?!? Let's take it off where it matters! Uuugh! Oh well, at least it's coming off SOMEWHERE right?!? 

TGIF.....BYOC!

1. If you were given $1,000,000 that you had to spend ONLY ON YOURSELF....how would you spend the money?A house and a brand new car. There's not a lot I need or want when I really sit down and think about it! The house is definitely the most desired at this point!

2. Who would you say is the one person that's had the most influence on your life? By that, I mean the person that has molded you in to the person you are today?
Do my parents count as one? It's hard to say either of them influenced me more than the other. I had a great life growing up and I continue have a great life! They've always been there for me, continue to be here for me, and support me in every which way. They are the GREATEST!! My entire family is the GREATEST!!

3. What is your normal morning routine? Are you a bear in the morning, or is the morning your favorite part of the day?
HATE mornings!! Work and school are the only things that get me up in the morning! What is even more irritating is the fact that my husband LOVES mornings! UUGH!! How can you be so happy in the morning?!?!?

4. If you're a Facebook and Twitter user, which do you prefer and why? If you're just a Facebook user, what do you think of the new changes? 
I don't Twitter. I don't feel like everyone needs to know what I'm doing every minute of the day. I LOVE Facebook and I must admit I'm a little addicted to it. It interferes with my study time and that's my own darn fault. It's so easy to lose track of time between blogger and FB!! But I love all my friends on both! If it weren't for FB, I wouldn't have kept in contact with many people from my past. I think it's awesome that I still know what's going on with people I went to KINDERGARTEN with! 
Feel free to look me up!!

5.  Repeat question....how was your week in real life and in blog land this week?
  Real life =  stressful. It is consumed with school, work, and studying. And of course trying to be conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth every minute of every day. I've been doing good, but slipped up this past week. I will NOT let this weight loss battle win! As we say in nursing school..........FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION!!


Blog land = not very social. Between all of the above mentioned things, it's hard for me to get on here and keep up to date with everyone! It makes me sad that I can't read and comment on everyone's blogs because you have all been such a huge support to me over the past months! I am trying the best I can though! I still love you all!!!!