So, as I mentioned a few days ago.....I'm HUNGRY!
This is what I ate today:
Breakfast: Protein drink and a little bit later some applesauce (3 oz.)
Lunch: Pudding (3 oz.)
Dinner: Grits (3-4 oz.)
Snack: Saltines (I didn't count how many)
I obviously did not do good on my protein drinks or fluids today. About 3-4 hours after I ate the grits for dinner, I found myself wanting something solid. The PA at my surgeon's office said if I need something solid, eat some saltines. So I did........so why do I feel guilty? I'm literally eating 9-12 OUNCES of food a day and I felt like I overate today! 9-12 oz. used to be a fraction of ONE meal prior to getting banded, so why do I feel this way? Am I getting obsessed with food and the scale? Is this normal? I feel like my mind is out of control.......constantly thinking about eating, drinking fluids, getting in my protein drinks, and the worst of it ALL.......the SCALE! I can't stay off the b&#ch!!! It goes up and down so much during the day which in turn makes my confidence go up and down along with it. The PA even told me that I may see a gain before my 1st fill.......so why don't I listen to her and not go off into my own little warfare with myself and emotions? UUGH! I frustrate myself!!